Struggles and Fuggles

Sometimes I wonder what the hell I'm doing, what got me here and how am I going to stay on top of this when I feel like the poles are aligning in some respects, but definitely not in others. That was my thought today and continues to be my thought tonight. I have the mindset that I can have whatever kind of day I set my mind to, but today just wasn't happening for me. It all started with an email that pissed me off and then to top off that email, I had a very eye opening conversation with someone I would now consider to be a mentor and then I get a phone call about some stuff going on that one wouldn't assume would throw me over the edge, but did, especially after my morning coffee convo. I would hope tomorrow could only get better and I think it will.
I am now in beautiful Pulaski, TN. I think this state is absolutely gorgeous and I could definitely live here or at least visit frequently. I am staying with a family friend who has known me since I was born, which has been absolutely wonderful. Seeing a familiar face who is as close to family as one can get has been a real treat, considering I haven't seen my family since May. I have to say I have been so incredibly spoiled with fresh veggies straight from the garden, hot breakfast, coffee, golf cart rides on the land, ice cream....I might not ever leave this place.
I had a customer tell me today that my new life should become a reality show. He can't believe how quickly I move around and all the excitement that has been created. Apparently I am doing something new every week, which is true, but to me that is what life is supposed to be about. I am getting out and experiencing new things. One thing I thought about today was the fact that my personality thrives on adventure and trying new things. Even if I am scared to death of something, I will generally at least try it. If I were to keep my personality "stuck in the walls" it would be like never opening that wrapped package to see what is inside. If I don't explore who I am and see who I wish to become, I will end up in the every day pattern of things and most likely just wonder what my potential could have been. We'll see what tomorrow brings and I vow not to look at that crackberry until I have had the chance to fully wake up and make up my mind as to what kind of day I am going to have. I believe it could be as productive as I make it...